Chapter 11 - I Want
April 15, 2011
Castiel and I had some more discussions on what I expected from him in general. I didn't want or need some slave to do everything, nor did I want him to feel like he owed it to me.
We also discussed consent some more. His parents had told him that his consent didn't matter, that he would do as he was told by his master. Explaining that consent is huge, especially in sexual situations, has taken a bit of time. My own inability to accurately detail shit hadn't helped.
One positive was we had found Mrs. Mosley. She was an African American woman whose specialty was more abduction and kidnapping but she had dealt with trauma like his before. She was an alpha and her scent didn't make Cas recoil in fear or hide behind me. She was also very cool with me being in the room during the sessions. He was aware that he had the option to discuss things privately if needed. But so far, he hadn't.
Another positive was he was able to spend some time with Charlie. She was also an alpha but he didn't mind her scent either. She had stayed with him while I reported to Jody, updating her on our witness. She giggled hysterically when I got back and a few days later a package arrived in Castiel's name. I knew he had purchased something but he hadn't let me open the box. As far as I knew he hadn't either.
I rolled over in the bed, finding his spot empty. Based on the smell of coffee he was already awake. I got up and padded to the living room, finding him at the counter with a cup in front of him.
"Morning, Sunshine."
He smiled slightly at me. "Morning, Alpha."
"You're up early. Anything wrong or just woke up early?"
"I had too much tea before bed. Woke up to pee and couldn't go back to sleep."
"It happens."
I got myself a cup of coffee and looked in the fridge. "We should visit the store soon."
"I noticed. I see Mrs. Moseley tomorrow, perhaps after her appointment?"
"We'll see how it goes. You have PT beforehand too."
He wrinkled his nose. "How much longer do I have for PT?"
"A few more weeks. You're doing really well."
"Mrs. Moseley was proud I was able to spend time with Charlie alone. Considering her sub-gender."
I smiled at him. She had been proud, but also concerned that he would do whatever Charlie asked. She had told me she was concerned about that because of him being alone when I returned to work. It was something we were working on.
It took a little time to get woken up but then we made breakfast together. Me teaching him how to cook, he needed to know how. He was still bad with the eggs, but he was getting really good with the bacon.
"What's the plan for today?" He asked.
"Well, you shot the store down. It's warming up some too, so maybe we can browse the backyard and plan? We can also look into the school programs you wanted."
He wanted to finish high school at least, perhaps even higher. He smiled at that and nodded so we spent the next several hours doing research to find out what he had to do. It was pretty simple since he was over eighteen. I even made a few calls to see when he could get in to be tested to see where he was grade level wise.
We had a simple lunch and I was about to watch some more Dr. Sexy when he paused. "I think I wanna shower and maybe nap."
"Want me to wait?"
"No, you said these were the episodes I've seen before, right?"
"Yes. From season one."
"Go ahead."
I settled in as he went to the back. I could faintly hear the shower running. The episodes were ones I'd seen multiple times but it was a good show.
I didn't expect him to come back to the front so soon, his naps were usually at least an hour or more. I glanced at first before he stepped in front of the TV.
The first thing that caught my eye was the black stockings over his feet and lower legs. It was odd that he would have them on.
"Cas?"
"You've wanted to see what was in the box..."
My eyes went to his face barely registering that he had my robe on. "I have wanted to see what was in the box."
He looked nervous though but the scent I detected was his normal one, no traces of anything negative. I picked up the remote and for a split second he looked disappointed until I turned the TV off and tossed the remote to the table.
"I have a feeling whatever was in that box, you currently have it on. Am I warm Sunshine?"
"Yes. You are. I'm not sure if you'll like it though."
"Did Charlie pick it out?"
"No, Alpha. She showed me how to, but I ordered the items later that afternoon while you fixed dinner. I didn't want her or anyone else to know what I ordered. These are for your eyes only."
I blinked; he had purchased something just for me. Meaning, this wasn't something he could wear outside the house.
I swallowed and as he moved to untie the robe, I strived hard to maintain control, but I could feel my alpha jumping at the bit.
The robe parted and he slipped it off his shoulders, I followed the robe to the floor. Breathing ceased to exist as my eyes took in the sight.
The black stockings highlighted his legs all the way to perfectly thick thighs. There was an expanse of skin before my eyes landed on the lace boy shorts in a soft blue color.
I was positive the red was starting to ease into my eyes. I could see the perfect outline of his cock, laying to the right. The way the lace allowed a peek was teasing enough. But there was also a layer of sheer lace over that and I continued up, the lace top flowing freely over his abdomen and ending with a band of baby blue satin before the lace covered his breast as well. The straps laying perfectly on his bare shoulders.
I could never ask for anything more beautiful. I simply held my hands up and he shyly walked closer.
"Do you like it, Alpha?"
Once I could lay my hands on his hips, feeling the soft lace I looked up. Meeting his blue eyes which had, for the first time, the beginnings of omega gold in them.
"I love every bit of it. You are gorgeous. You chose very well."
I saw the faint blush dust his cheeks before he moved into my lap. Planting his knees on either side of my legs. Up close the lace had delicate swirls in it.
"Gotta admit, Sweetheart. This might be a bit of a tease; that's totally unfair."
His hands circled my neck as he leaned in closer. The kiss was soft and sweet. "Not a tease, Alpha. I..." he paused, his eyes shimmering in gold and blue. "I want you to show me everything, Alpha."
I tilted my head slightly confused; was he saying what I thought he was? I was about to ask but another kiss shut me up. It wasn't as chaste this time and when he leaned back there was way more gold in his eyes than before.
"I'm giving you permission, Alpha. I'm consenting to letting you touch any part of me you want. I'm consenting to...sex. I promise if at any time I feel uncomfortable I will tell you."
"Castiel, are you sure?"
"Yes, Alpha. I want you to fuck me."
Well, that wouldn't do. I kissed him softly."I will not fuck you, Castiel." The disappointment was clear on his face and his scent. He started to move away from me but I got his hips and held him firmly where he was. "I will make love to you, but this time should not be about just fucking."
The tension eased in his body and he relaxed a bit more. "I thought you were saying no."
"No, Sweetheart. But we'll take our time. You deserve that."
I swept some of the stray hairs out of his face, the dampness indicating he had showered beforehand. Which also implied he planned this. So I had permission. What do I do?
"Is there anything in which you know you won't be comfortable with?"
He shook his head. "I trust you."
I moved my left hand around to his back and pulled him as close as I could. "I promise, no bites. Nibbles, maybe."
I should move us, but for the moment this was good. I needed his head space in a sexy area, not thinking about consent or problems. I pulled him in and went for kisses. Letting the calm scents drift over us both. Keeping my hands on his hips or down onto the open expanse of his thigh.
His hands stayed pretty safe around my neck or on my shoulders. Even as my lips moved along his cheek, his hands remained. I nipped his ear lobe and felt the fingers tighten some. "Mm, you're so responsive to me. It'll be so fun to lay you out and show you everything."
I felt him lean in and the soft kiss to my neck. "Please."
I moved along his neck, sometimes kissing and sometimes nipping. Until the clear scent of honey began to creep into his scent, my alpha was pinning and wanting more. His soft little exhales weren't enough.
"You want to move to the bedroom?"
He shifted in my lap and the honey scent dipped in its intensity. But he nodded against my neck. I placed a kiss on his shoulder. "Hold on tight."
It took a little maneuvering to get to the edge of the sofa, I placed my hands under him, partly on the smooth skin and partly on the lower part of his ass. He gasped lightly as I stood up, but his arms tightened around my neck and his legs moved around me.
He was nervous. The honey scent was not as strong as it was, the slight tint of acidic citrus cutting through all the sweetness. I could also feel a very light shake, the closer we got to the bedroom.
Once there I laid him down as close to the center as I could, but held myself above him. "Sweetheart?"
His pupils were blown, the golden yellow breaking through the sky blue. He was quiet for a moment, maybe adjusting to a position we've never been in.
"I'm okay. It's...new."
I leaned down and kissed him. "New is good." I wanted to ask what other positions they used, so I would avoid them. But I didn't want those thoughts to be anywhere near his mind right now. So I would ask later on. Right now, I would work on getting that honey to come back by having deeper kisses, my tongue exploring his lips and occasionally more when he let me. I could focus on his neck more, his mating gland which brought that honey scent along with something new.
The scent was close to his natural one of jasmine and vanilla but the sweetness was almost cloying. It took far too long to realize it was slick; I was scenting his slick.
He was also responding better, I could feel him squirming below me now. I licked a long strip over his mating glad and felt the deep vibration in his chest. A purr that I'd never felt before.
I nipped his ear lightly. "Your hands do not have to remain in one place. You have my permission to touch all you want. To do what feels good."
"Really?"
I kissed his cheek. "Yes."
I had to admit that feeling his hands explore as well, was a good feeling. To know he felt safe and knew I wouldn't hurt him if he touched me.
I eased myself down some, going more for the collarbone area. I dipped around the cups of the bra area, relishing the vibrations against my lips. His breaths were coming steady but the scent of honey was stronger, the slick scent was also stronger.
My alpha wanted to move straight to the slick and taste his omega. But I knew this had to be slower. He deserved this.
I trailed my fingers up and slid the strap down his arm, exposing pebbled nipples. The first time my tongue moved over his right nipple his back arched and that was a moan that he cut off.
"I want to hear your sounds, all of them. No more cutting them off."
"Yes, Alpha."
I moved back, repeated the action and not only did he moan, I could feel him move beneath me, his hips seeking some friction. I lavished each side, soft nips and alternating wet, cool licks and sucks with hot air and light pinches. The honey was such a thick scent that I was getting high on it and that sweet slick scent was getting my alpha riled up even more.
"Alpha..."
"You want this off? Or something else?"
"Off. Please."
"You'll have to let me up, sweetheart."
He hadn't even released his hold around my waist, but he did now and I sat up, leaving his thighs dropped across mine. He looked gorgeous still. The flush spreading down his chest, the blown pupils and how his hair was now wrecked. My eyes traveled lower to find he was hard in those panties, little wet spots already dotting the lace and a much larger one further down. Dark blue standing against soft blue.
He sat up and went to unhook it himself but I stopped him. "I want to do this."
His arms dropped and I got a ghost of a smile. I eased my arms around him unhooking the three snaps, my fingers skated along the ribs and dipped under the end.
"You'll definitely have to wear this again, multiple times. I may even have to find new colors."
I lifted the hem slowly, letting my fingertips barely graze his skin. Even as he raised his arms to let me toss it to the side. But as soon as his hands were down they were grabbing the hem of my shirt and lifting it up. I was not going to complain. I did have to help a little bit, but then I moved him back down.
"I like this." He said. His hands had found my back, just grazing the skin which felt very nice.
"Let's make it better."
I moved down, his hands not able to reach far but my lips and hands had a whole expanse to explore now. I gently went over the ticklish spot, eliciting a giggle from him.
But even with the brief break, the sweet honey was still strong.
"So many things I want to do..." I mused.
For the moment I skipped his dick, placed kisses all along his hips, playful nips before moving down. The stockings were quick but it seemed like his inner thighs were really sensitive. The softer sounds he made as I nipped my way up.
The sugary scent had me hard as nails. The darkening stain drew me in. But I knew I couldn't just pounce.
"Alpha...please."
"Please what? What do you want me to do?"
"Touch me, please just do something."
My hands were already touching but I moved them up and slid one hand over the erection he was sporting. The head was purplish and the moan I got for just that was deep and lustful.
I moved my hand slowly for several minutes, feeling the soft lace and the hardness beneath, fuck that was hot. I finally couldn't take it and had to get those panties out of the way. I simply pulled them down to get them clear.
I leaned down and tentatively licked the head of his dick. His sharp breath caught my attention and I glanced up, before doing it again. It wasn't as sharp but it was clear he was struggling. I rose up a little. "Sunshine?"
"New...feels...good."
"Just wait."
Precome always tasted salty to me, he was no different. A few more licks before I took the head into my mouth and the moan was heaven to my ears. He was bigger than most omegas I'd seen, but still manageable.
Based on the lack of control he seemed to have in his hips, he wouldn't last long. That was fine though.
"Alpha. I..."
I hummed approval at his lack of words. I did have to put my hand on his hip though after being gagged a bit. After several moments I switched it up, using my hand to steadily stroke the shaft while I kissed and licked at the head or even moved down to suck a ball into my mouth and roll it around.
His words were unintelligible babbles at the moment, but when I went back to sucking his whole dick in my mouth I felt his hands tighten on my shoulders. It wasn't long before he came, tasting oddly like honey.
I cleaned him up the best I could before moving up his abdomen, light kisses until I reached his lips. "Still with me?"
He nodded, but didn't say anything so I peppered his entire face with soft kisses.
"Alpha.."
"There you are, now you're really back with me."
"You didn't – " I cut him off with another kiss.
"I am nowhere near done with you. Don't worry, I'll come tonight. Buried deep inside you. If that's still what you want."
"Please, Alpha."
I should have been shocked but I was far too focused on kissing him until he came down some that I wasn't paying his hands any attention, not until one of them was wrapped around my cock. My head dropped to his shoulder as pleasure coursed through my veins.
But he must have understood I wanted more than quick because he didn't try to bring me all the way, instead he worked on getting my sweatpants off until I was forced to get up and remove them.
Standing gave me the ability to admire him, debauched and those panties still where I'd left them. His eyes were glued to me though.
"Nervous?"
"A little."
I crawled up onto the bed and tickled the bottom of his foot, even as he pulled it away from me. But he was fine when I went after those thighs with my hands.
"I've wanted to be able to do this for so long."
"It feels nice, Alpha."
His breathing was good, his chest wasn't as red and I was so ready to move on. I considered flipping him over but I feared that would bring up the bad memories.
"I'd like for us to try a position, you can say no. And even if you agree and find you don't like it, we can change. Okay?"
He seemed confused but nodded. I nudged him over some out of the center before getting rid of the panties he still had on. Peeling them off was easy, the soaked straddle was a good sign that he was enjoying this.
I then moved the pillows and patted the center. "Kneel here then lean forward. Use the headboard to help support yourself."
His brow raised and damn the last time I saw a Dom brow like that it was on a man who was dominant. But he eventually moved carefully, kneeling then leaning forward. Fuck this was a vision, the smooth skin down to his perky ass.
I moved up against him, letting my cock nestle between those cheeks. Then moved my hands over his sides
"Remember, sweetheart. If you don't like anything, you are safe to say it."
"Yes, Alpha."
I kissed down his spine and then flipped over laying down, the perfect damn view of his ass. I scooted back, putting my shoulders between his feet and wrapping my arms around those thighs and guided him back some.
"Alpha?"
I held him steady for a moment because I needed a moment too. The slick was everywhere, the heady smell so strong, so intoxicating.
My alpha was pleased to be so close. The first time my tongue lapped at his hole I could feel him tense up, his thighs getting tense in my hold.
The taste though. My God I'd never tasted anything as perfect. The sweet notes of honey mixed with a little vanilla, I wanted to drown in it. The slick was thick and had already spread but I wanted it all, lapping at his skin until I had cleared the slick and was back to his hole.
Little shudders coursed through his legs, I could barely see his face from my position and only if he leaned forward with his head against the wall.
But as he relaxed I was able to dip my tongue into him, and the sounds he made for that were heaven. He was relaxing even more, opening up to the point I wondered if I would need to stretch him. But I wanted this experience to go as perfect as possible, so keeping one arm wrapped around the right thigh I brought my other one around, gently teasing the rim before slipping it in.
I heard the thunk and glanced up, his head was against the wall. "Cas?"
"I..." what followed was a deep moan so I assumed he was okay. But his head remained against the wall.
I worked him open slowly, taking my time, savoring every sound he made, every movement. When I was positive he was ready, I moved my fingers to that little bundle of nerves and I would remember the way he gasped and how he rocked back onto my fingers.
"Alpha... I..."
"Come for me, sweetheart."
It didn't take more than that before he was coming, I didn't even mind that it landed on my face. I just licked what I could off, I needed to wash my face anyway. His legs were trembling and his face was flushed, head still resting against the wall.
I was trying to come up with how to move us when he began to move. I laid still as he shifted his legs down and only moved myself up just a bit. His perfect ass settled right against my erection, the warm heat making my dick throb with anticipation.
I grabbed the shirt but before I could wipe the slick and come off my face he kissed me. My hands let go of the shirt and moved to his waist, before sliding down onto his ass. I kneaded some, resisted the urge to slap.
When he pulled away he looked utterly debauched, his hair was a mess and his face was flushed.
"Do you want me to present now, Alpha?"
Oh what a sight that would be, but I didn't want to see the back of his head. I kissed him again. "No, I want you facing me. I want to see every expression and hear every little noise."
His brows knitted in confusion. "I don't know any other way."
"You're in a great position now. Gives you the control to go as slow or as fast as you want. You or I can guide. If you still want to go this far."
"I do."
"Sit up just a bit then."
He used my chest to help sit himself up, which put all kinds of wonderful pressure on my cock and I also think that's what clicked with him. Having the head brush against him, feeling the shaft press tightly against his hole.
It took a little encouragement and position adjustment before I was sliding into him, the slick easing the way. It felt like home. Like this was what I had been missing my entire life.
It felt like mate even more than his scent.
I watched his face and guided him down before stopping him, letting him adjust. But the look on his face was all pleasure and no pain. The hooded eyes and golden pupils.
He set a slow pace and it was incredible to get my hands on those thighs as he rose and fell, to hear the squishy sounds as the slick coated me and even ran down to my balls.
"You are doing so well, you feel so good."
"Alpha..."
I thrust up to meet his downward movement and he gasped and then moaned, so I kept on. Until I was pretty sure his legs were giving out and the shaking was not from another impending orgasm.
I'm sure flipping us slightly startled him but it didn't last long before his hands were clawing at my biceps, his legs wrapped around my waist.
He was saying something but it wasn't anything I could understand, broken words mixed with moans, grunts and the occasional yelp. The closer I got, the less words he tried. I could feel his cock against my belly, hard again. But his hands didn't stray off my arms.
His third orgasm is what caused my knot to finally lock us together. The orgasm sweeping through my veins, the urge to bite him was so strong but I opted to kiss him instead, followed by holding him as best as I could.
This wasn't the ideal position, but the way he was barely holding on said he couldn't move. So I stayed here, kneeling until my knot went down.
I knew I should fix dinner, shower and clean the bed but he'd whined when I moved away so I opened to cuddle, letting him nuzzle in and scent me.
Truthfully, my eyes were closing even as I realized he was asleep beside me.
What did wake me up was mewling sounds and once I was more alert the scent hit me. The jasmine and vanilla was so strong and so much sweeter, the scent of slick was thick and he was mewling at me.
"Castiel?"
"Alpha..."
It took my sleep-addled brain a good three minutes to realize what was going on.
His heat. Castiel's heat had started. My omega needed me.
And I would not disappoint.